Well kids it's been a few days since I've written something interesting on here, so I figured that I would update a little bit. Just let you kids who are interested in, and follow my blogs what is new in my life. As the title suggests (other than being trashed because I'm not) but this blog is going to be somewhat scattered. I do tend to jump all over the place when I write blogs.. or anything really. If you know me in real life then you know that I really am kind of a scattered person (in some ways..)!

Well this weekend has been completely boring really as I am trying to finish up my research paper. Doing this is proving to be difficult because I can only have fifteen sources, and my topic is on homosexuality,and there are an infinite number of sources that I wish to use, and that includes pictures.

I have been feeling really depressed lately and I have yet to figure out why. It sucks but I am dealing as well as I can. I guess not all of us are great at coping with life and all of the stressors that come with. I am looking into getting back into some kind of therapy for this, because I refuse to take any anti-depressants.

Tonight (Sunday) I went to the Civil Air Patrol Christmas party, because my brother (Jon) is heavily involved with this program and I thought that it would be nice for me to go. The only upside to going to this thing, because for the most part is was boring as fuck, was getting to see Tony and Cynthia Ketchum (both of whom I haven't seen in AGES!)

I recently found at that my best friend Kim Bell was in town for Thanksgiving and I didn't get to see her! And.. she brought Laura Snyder with her... so that kind of depressed me some.. because I would have LOVED to hang out with the both of them. On Kim's blog, when she referenced shitty friends not being able to hang out I hope that I was not one of those shitty friends that she was talking about.. because I couldn't get ahold of her. Plus, I didn't know for how long she was in town for.

I have been doing a lot of thinking about religion lately and I have decided that I am going to become a Buddhist. I know some of you are rolling your eyes or you are laughing because I am the girl that is usually against any form of religion.. but I've decided that Buddhism is not like other types of religions. I'm going to have to get in touch with Cynthia about going down to the Cultural Center and checking it out.

Anyways kids..I must be getting back to my research paper!

XOXOXOXO...LOVE YA!

Jamie!

So I've been working very hard on my research paper for my eng 102 class... and after three hours this is all I've got. I took what Bry and I came up with and tweaked it a bit because my teacher didn't like what I had to say. So I, Jamie Lucas, am about to unveil to you, probably the lamest shit that I've ever had to write... because I have no desire to write about it. Even though this is a topic that I feel so strongly about.

Jamie Lucas
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Life, Liberty, and Homosexuality

“We hold these truths to be self-evident, that all men are created equal, that they are endowed by their Creator with certain unalienable Rights, that among these are Life, Liberty and the pursuit of Happiness…”(Declaration of Independence) These are the beautiful words of Thomas Jefferson, and the Founding Fathers, who truly believed in a diverse nation and that all men, no matter what or who they are, are created equal. These words from the Declaration of Independence have set the standards of the U.S. for over two hundred years, and the country has prided itself on that fact. The ideas of the Founding Fathers of America however, have had to be redefined and clarified over the years to fit the current societal standards that are in place. The first issues of inequality that arose were of issues of religion, then race, and then sex. As time has passed, the United States has been able to overcome these discrimination issues and now diversity is defined as the tolerance of anyone of any race, religion, or sex, but what about a person’s sexual orientation?

Lately all of my friends seem to be turning on me. I don't understand at all why everyone is making such a big deal of it, but it is frustrating as all hell. I have always been the best friend that one could possibly be. I guess that I just let people walk all over me and I never stand up to it... so now that I'm not putting up with their shit, they call me a horrible friend?!?! What the hell is that about. I'm so sick and fucking tired of crying all the time because my best friends seem to hate me.

One of my best friends in the entire world (not Kim Brandt..) but Kim Bell was in town for a fucking week, and she never called.. never let me know she was in town.. never wanted to hang out.. and you know what.. that hurts me! That hurts me so fucking bad. She got pissed as hell at me last time she was in town... because the day she wanted to hang out and party.. well let's just say that I couldn't because I had class. I had to get up and take an exam VERY EARLY the next morning.. and she got so pissed off and started yelling at me... and her words were, "You've officially been cut from my life because you are a horrible fucking friend and I don't need you anymore." Well I bawled my eyes out for a week.. and she of all people I had hoped would understand.. because she knows what it's like to have shitty friends who want to party all the time, regardless of school obligations. I take my education very seriously and she knows that.. so for her to get in a huff because GOD FORBID.. I didn't have time at that exact moment in my life for HER.. that makes me a horrible friend! I don't understand. If anyone wants to add their two cents in, please do. I am curious as to what others think of this situation.

So my younger brother Jonathan knew that I had some important work due today for my English 102 class, and he knew that I had to use the computer that is located in his room to do it. What does that little shit do? Oh he unplugs our internet connection, and breaks the wireless mouse that is necessary in order for me to use the computer. I'm so mad that he did that to me! Now I have to hand in an outline for my English class that is half done and complete shit.

I know, I know, y'all are probably saying,"Why the hell didn't you just use the school computers!" Several reasons, 1) My floppy discs always end up corrupted, 2) I didn't have time, and 3)I thought that I had a good computer at home!

So in short... right now.. I am so fucking angry that there is probably steam coming out of my ears!! I HATE MY FUCKING LITTLE BROTHER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I know I haven't posted in forever, but things have been a little busy for me! I wrote this last Friday with the intentions of posting it here, but I am just now getting around to it. So sorry that I haven't updated in forever, but anyways.. I just thought that I would share this with you. This last week (Friday Nov 11 to Nov 18) has probably been the most exciting week that I've had all fucking year.

Saturday November 11,2006: The day started out quite boring as I had to go to my psychology class at eight in the morning and I really haven't been sleeping well, so that was a drag. Then I get interesting news when I got to class which brightened up my day some... I had been selected to get a paid to take a test. I know a test?!?! How is that interesting news... well I signed up to for that like three months ago and I believed that I hadn't been selected. I need the money so bad so I celebrated the fact that I was indeed selected for it. Anyways back to the story... now of course I was at least ten minutes late to class because I waited until I woke up and showered to actually pack for Sedona. Now as to the reason why I was heading to Sedona... Red Rock Fantasy (if you don't know what it is check out their website... http://www.RedRockFantasy.com ) I got up to Sedona at about 2ish and was starving so Chris and I headed to Basha's for food.. and my hungry ass self ended up getting almost sixty dollars worth of groceries and I was only going to be up there for a day and a half. Several people that I hadn't seen in a while were up there.. and there was much celebrating to be done.. as this day was the first official day of "Set-Up." I ended up going to bed so fucking late it wasn't funny. My dad ended up getting my brother Jacob completely sloshed and the best part about it was, I found the secret combination to keep Jacob mellow as hell. Anyways... END OF DAY ONE.

Sunday November 12, 2006: There really wasn't jack shit for me to do, so I walked around and looked at people's barely constructed sites. It's a fun way of getting some kind of idea of the competition. I also pretty much helped Kathy Canine out quite a bit (okay so not that much.. but I gave her ideas.. if that counts!)! The day was pretty mellow, pretty much I was everyone's bitch.. "Go get this.." "Go get that.." "Oh, you're going to the store can you pick me up these *Hands list of a million items of which I have no clue what majority of them are*" Yeah.. that was my Sunday. I stayed through dinner and had a fun time, and then yeah.. 1930 it's time to head home. Let me just say this.. driving out of Sedona at night was not fun for me... especially with my eighteen year old brother trying to tell me how to drive.. Excuse me kid.. I've had a license longer than you have!! Anyways.. got home really late and showed my penis shaped vibrating lighter(long story.. but I'll tell you if you ask). Went to bed.. END OF DAY TWO.

Monday November 13, 2006: Work... School in evening.. new episode of CSI:Miami.. bed....END OF DAY THREE

Tuesday November 14, 2006: Work.. school in evening.. dunno what television show I watched.. Criminal Minds or something I dunno??.. bed... END OF DAY FOUR

Wednesday November 15, 2006: Today didn't start out very well for me... oh no.. I had to go and get sick with some unknown ailment. Let's just say diarrhea and vomitting are not fun things, especially when you have a two hour drive ahead of you. So I was supposed to get up at 0800 and hop in the shower, then go pick up my paycheck, put it in the bank, and head to Sedona. Well that is not how things went down. I ended up not even getting in the shower until fucking 1430. I left my house by 1530 as I still had not packed for my journey/stay back up in Sedona. I had to drive for forty-five minutes to get to work to pick up my paycheck and then I headed for 19th Ave and Bethany Home... where my mother insisted there was a branch of our bank. Well I could not find it so I said fuck it and headed out towards Sedona. I ended up getting into Sedona pretty late.. like 1830-ish. Patrick and his brother came over to dad, Chris', and my room to hang for quite a while actually. By this time I was feeling better.. had not puked in 3 1/2+ hours.. but my stomach still felt like someone was squeezing and twisting it hard. I didn't accept any of there offered medication because I thought at that time that any "Medication" might upset my stomach further. Dad was supposed to order dinner, but he didn't because his ass waited until 2140 to place the order, and the kitchen which officially closes at "2200" was already closed. Bullshit I know.. I mean.. I know it takes a while to close down the kitchen and clean up.. but if you advertise that you close at 2200 then you would think.. that you would stop everything then right?!?!? Who knows what the fuck was going on... anyways.. I ended up catching some of Bones and the entire new episode of CSI:NY. Pretty trippy shit... I ended up crashing out early as I was completely exhausted and worn out.. not to mention hungry from not being able to eat anything all day. END OF DAY FIVE.

Thursday November 16, 2006: LIGHT UP! Today I was actually put to work! Can you believe it? Well that is only because the procrastinatiors waited until last minute to get some of the important stuff done. I had to "fluff" garland and string it along the bottom of the tree (there will be pictures posted soon.) and that was the most exciting thing that I got to do for the whole damn display. I went over to Kathy's room for a bit to help her out. I so almost got to sit on stage with my dad... but they didn't know if there were enough seats... turns out there were but.. anyways.. I'm not complaining. The evening was really fun albeit cold.. but that was all part of the spirit of Christmas I guess. After the ceremony and just before dinner, I caught the new episode of CSI. Yeah.. a lot of people didn't like it.. but I did. It was kind of creepy though. I ate dinner and went back to the room and tried to stay nice and warm.. and Patrick came over to hang out a bit. That was fun.. especially the talk we had when we down to the creek, even though the creepy stoner guys disappeared somewhere into the night. (Pretty much people.. Patrick is the only one who would understand all of this... and he probably won't read this!) Patrick and I pretty much chill-axed the rest of the evening and into early morning... but he left and I fell asleep. Though the fucker promised he'd come by in the morning to say goodbye and he didn't !!! (I'm not really that mad Patrick don't fret.. hahaha!) END OF DAY SIX.

Friday November 17, 2006: The sweet feeling of cold hands on your face at 0600 when you've only gone to bed about an hour before. Talk about rude awakenings.. those fuckers.. I didn't get out of bed and I didn't go to breakfast just like I didn't get out of bed or go to breakfast pretty much the entire rest of the week! Assholes! Anyways... so I finally dragged my fat ass out of bed at about 1030 and hopped in the shower and got dressed.. packed and loaded and headed back home by 1215-ish. Yup.. that was my day... the rest of it was spent driving, sleeping, or surfing the net. CSI:Miami marathon on A&E. Went to bed.. got class bright and early at 0800. END OF DAY SEVEN.

This last week was honestly, probably the most exciting weeks that I've had in months and I feel like I really needed it. I felt more relaxed and comfortable after the last few months that have been hell on me. I've been working so hard towards a goal that every day doesn't seem any closer to me... but this week helped me to take the time out that I needed to breathe and gather my bearings before heading back out onto the unpredictable path known as my future. There are times when everyone needs a break and the RRF (see entry for day one if you don't know what RRF stands for) could provide me with that. Granted, there will always be drama there and there will always be someone bitching and moaning about something.. it is still a relief from the crazy-ness called life.

I've had the opportunity to meet some really interesting people over the last week, and I just hope that we all could remain friends.. even if we only really get to see each other once a year. Everyone could use friends that have common interests right? I mean, isn't your friend group... a group of people that have similiar interests as yourself? I dunno.. anyways... oh yeah.. in other exciting news.. I think my sister is back in town! It is going to make for some fuuuuun times.. though I hope she calls me soon cuz I miss her ass.. I haven't seen her for forever!!! I LOVE YOU FRODO!!!!


I'LL ADD ANOTHER POST IN A MINUTE, REGARDING MY ANGRY MOOD.

Alright you guys, so I know some of you know that I've been working on some research materials for my English 102 class. Well this is my first outline. I just want to know what some of you think about it. If anyone can help me come up with a thesis, could you? I know that this topic should probably be easy as hell, but for some odd reason... I'm just having a hell of a time trying to figure one out.

I'm not asking that any of you write a thesis for me, but some suggestions that could help that little light bulb go off. Any help that any of you are willing to offer would be greatly appreciated.

Title of Paper: Life, Liberty, and Homosexuality

1. Introduction: 3rd person, causal analysis

A. Main Focus: To discuss homosexuality.

1. Detail: Analysis on what exactly homosexuality is.
2. Detail: Where largest gay communities within the states, and where
the largest anti-gay communities are located.
3. Detail: What are the causes of homophobia?
4. Detail: What does politics have to do with the way the U.S. treats the
Gay community?

2. Thesis: (not sure yet)

3. Background:

A. Give a brief history on homophobia.
B. There may be a few terms to define.
C. Samples?

4. Research Question #1: What are the main causes of homophobia?

A. Main Focus: Generation gap, the older the generation the less tolerant of homosexuals. Younger generation is also more likely to be openly gay, than the older generations.
One: Someone who is in their sixties probably is not going to be as accepting as someone who is in their twenties.

Two:

B. Main Focus: Lack of education regarding acceptance of homosexuals.
One: Someone who has not grown up in an environment where sex education is taught, and where tolerance is taught, then they are not going to be as accepting.

Two:

C. Main Focus: Geographical location within the U.S., the Midwest aka “Bible
Belt” is not going to be as tolerant as the people on the east and west coast are of gay people.
One: The east and west coast’s are full of many gay pride communities, but within the Midwest (Bible belt) there are not so many, and it is not tolerated, as religion is more prominent in this particular section of the U.S

Two:

5. Research Question #2: Who are the largest gay communities in the United States and where are they located, and who are the largest anti-gay communities and where are they geographically located in proportion to the gay communities?

A. Main Focus: Who are the largest gay communities and where are they geographically located?
One: Who are the largest gay communities in the United States and where they are geographically located. This is important to know to compare to the other side of the fence, where the anti-gay groups are located.

Two:

B. Main Focus: Who are the largest anti-gay communities and where are they geographically located?
One: This is important to know so that we can compare the two areas and see if they correspond. Are the major anti-gay groups located near prominently gay communities, that are accepted.

6. Research Question #3: How does the political world help or hurt the gay communities?

A. Main Focus: The political world can help the gay communities because there
are some politicians out there that are fighting for equal rights for the gay community.

B. Main Focus: On the flip side, there are many politicians out there that think that gay marriage, and equal rights should be illegal in all fifty states.

7. Conclusion (depends on thesis)

A. Main Focus: Reiterate the thesis.

Alright guys, this is my first entry here so I thought I'd take the time to make this an introduction. As it says on my profile, I was an avid MySpace user, until I started getting to many friend requests from to many immature idiots. On threat of pain of death, my friend Bry told me that I had to make a Live Journal, so here I am! I guess I don't have a lot to say but my name is Jamie and I'm 20! Well, I'm sure in a few months after I've gotten the hang of this thing, I'll be laughing at the stupidness of this post but whatever. Until next time kids! Adios, XOXOXOX Jamie!